(From a transformed parent)
I went through what I now call “Life”, then it felt like an analogy of what I can call “Hell”. Living life and getting married seemed like the most glorious thing that anyone could experience. But life challenges had another thing coming, or rather God had another plan for me. When you have your own plan in life no matter how dedicated you are as a Christian, and when life challenges hit you, then it goes to show you that you had not involved God in those plans, or rather you were not walking in His plans.
I almost lost my mind, and in silence without anyone knowing the pain I felt, I wanted nothing but just to run away where things seemed to be easy. I have always been loving, smiling and too open and free with everyone, I never ever thought that in life there would be people who can be hurtful and still don’t even care that they hurt you. I believed in goodness on everyone, up until I met people who just didn’t like or rather prefer me – well for their own reasons.
For years, I have cried, questioned, and cried more, but I was told to continue to love, because that is who God is in our lives. I prayed and cried, prayed more and loved and cried, all this in silence, but it seemed like all I was getting back instead of love and acceptance, was more hurt and pain, up until I found myself taking anti-depressants while pregnant and my Doctor telling me he is close to admitting me for depression – and all I was still getting was more pain and insults from the people who were supposed to be rejoicing with me on the gifts of children that God was blessing me with.
I started to have conversations with God, I questioned Him, and seemed like I was not getting the answers, He seemed silent on me, He seemed very far. I was convinced He is not there or if He is then He doesn’t love me. I started questioning His existence and I concluded there is no God at all. If He was, he wouldn’t allow me to go through what I have been through and then make me a laughing stock. Every night I was in pain, my pregnancy was challenging. My husband tried to help me, but he couldn’t because all this was happening in silence, trying to protect my marriage and him.
I enrolled my daughter in the school, it seemed like a “Good Christian” thing to do, because that is what is expected, when she was supposed to start school. I didn’t want to take her there, because I felt why? What is the reason? I can raise my daughter without God, since He was never there for me. A friend of mine said to me “Take her there, God can use her to heal you.” It didn’t make sense, I didn’t want to heal, I wanted to be angry, I wanted to cry and all.
One night I said, God this is my last try – if you really exist and you are there somewhere show yourself. And He did (I cannot narrate the dream), but God literally entered my house. I felt His touch that night. And I decided to bring my daughter to attend the school (Hatfield North Christian Academy – Pretoria North).
I don’t know how, but I would like to believe that God does exist after all, because He set me up through my daughter. Every day she heals my soul; she leads me to forgiveness every day. I am loving the journey of forgiveness, because it helps me find the real me in God.
I do not regret going through what I went through, even though it was too painful, and still is. Every time I look at my two girls I’m learning to be grateful for that painful journey, because it has led me to find the real me and who God is in my life.
My little daughter’s name means ‘God’s WILL’ and that is now the great experience in my life. She teaches me to pray; she teaches me to be grateful; she teaches me to be a lot of things through the teachings she gets from the school. I am so grateful to the teachers and the school in general for the principles that are being instilled in my child. She has become more like a parent to me that guides me and helps me to be stronger every day. She reminds me of a young me; she makes me wish that my parents had given me such a start in life.
I am grateful for the challenges, but I am more grateful for the light that I see in my little girl who comes back from school every day to give me the hope of Happiness.
I have learnt to laugh again and love; I realize people tried to change the person I am by pricking and poking me. Like Jesus I had to “die” to self and resurrect a different person, who still holds the same original values: “LOVE” – that is all I have been about and that is all I will continue to be about and I will raise my children in “LOVE”.
*******THANK YOU………WITH LOVE******
(From a parent involved in the Preschool and Primary School)
I would like to thank you so much for what you do for all the children coming through your doors. I see a change/growth in my own kids every single day. May God increase you – and I do hope when we come back to SA there will be space at your high school for us!
(From a Pre-school parent)
I enrolled my child at the school in February this year. Within the period of a month, my husband and I have seen such great progress in her language, speech and in her communication with other children. I would like to thank the school for their hard work. May God bless them mightily!
(From a Pre-school parent)
“Our kids attending HNCA has not just been a blessing to us, but the best investment we have made for their future!”